-blah blah blah.. i just love my pahak so much ang just at is.. lol :p ((sampol agen))

blah blah blah.. i just love pahak and just as it.. :p

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You’ve done
Not because of what I’ve done
But because of who You’re

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I’m calling
Lord, You catch me when I’m falling
And You’ve told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
‘Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

–to figure out your birthday number, add all the numbers in your birth  date together, like in the example, until there is only one digit. A birth number does not prevent you from being anything does not prevent you from being anything you want to be, it will just color your choice differently and give you a little insight.

example: July 28, 1984
7 + 28 + 1984= 2019 = 2 + 0 + 1 + 9 = 12 = 1 + 2 = 3

3 is the birth number in this example.
1. The Originator
2. The Peacemaker
3. The Life Of The Party
4. The Conservative
5. The Non Conformist
6. The Romantic
7. The Intellectual
8. The Big Shot
9. The Performer

1. The Originator
1’s are originals. Coming up with new ideas and executing them is natural. Having things their own way is another trait that gets them as being stubborn and arrogant. 1’s are extremely honest and do well to learn some diplomacy skills. They like to take the initiave and are often leaders or bosses, as they like to be the best. Being self-employed is definitely helpful for them. Lessons to learn: Other’s Ideas might be just as good and to stay open minded.

2. The Peacemaker
2’s are thr born diplomats. They are aware of other’s needs and moods and often think of others before themselves. Naturally analytical and very intuitive they don’t like to be alone. Friendship and companionship is very important and can lead them to be successful in life, but on the other hand they’d rather be alone than be in an uncomfortable relationship. Being naturally shy the should learn to boost their self-esteem and express themselves freely and seize the moment and not put things off.

3. The Life of a Party
3’s are idealists. They are very creative, social, charming, romantic, and easygoing. They start many things, but don’t always see them through. They like others to be happy and go to great lenghts to achieve it. They are very popular and idelistic. They should learn to see the world from a more realistic point of view.

4. The Conservative
4’s are sensible and traditional. They like order and routine. They only act when they fully understand what they are expected to do. They like getting their hands dirty and working hard. They are attracted to the outdoors and feel an affinity with nature. They are prepared to wait and can be stubborn and persistent. They should learn to be more flexible and to be nice to themselves.

5. The Non Conformist
5’s are the explorers. Their natural curiosity, risk taking, and enthusiasm often land them in hot water. They need diversity, and don’t like to be stuck in a rut. The world is their school and they see a learning possibility in every situation. The questions never stop. They are well advised to look before they take action and make sure they have all the facts before jumping to conclusion.

6. The Romantic
6’s are idealistic and need to feel useful to be happy. A strong family connection is important to them. Their actions influence their decisions. They have a strong urge to take care of others and to help. They are very loyal and make great teahcers. They like art or music. They make loyal friends who take the friendship seriously. 6’s should learn to differentiate between what they can change and what they cannot.

7. The Intellectual
7’s are the searchers. Always probing for hidden information they find it difficult to accept things at face value. Emotions don’t sway their decisions. Questioning everything in life, they don’t like to                   be questioned themselves. They’re never off to a fast start, and their motto is slow and steady wins the race. They come across as philosophers and being very knowledgeable, and sometimes as loners. They  are tehcnically  inclined and make great researchers incovering information. They like secrets. They live in their own world and should learn what is acceptable and what not in the world at large.

8. The Big Shot
8’s are the problem solvers. They are professional, blunt and to the point, have good judgement and are decesive. They have grand plans and like to live the good life. They take charge of people. They view people objectively. They let you know in no uncertain terms that they are theboss. They should learn to exude their decisions on their own needs rather than on what other’s want.

9. The Performer
9’s are natural entertainers. They are very caring and generous, giving away their last dollar to help. With their charm, they have no problem making friends and nobody is a stranger to them. They have so many different personalities that people around them have a hard time understanding them. They are like chameleons, ever changing and blending in. They have tremendous luck, but also can suffer from extremes in fortune and mood. To be successful, they need to build a loving foundation.

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~weeeeeeee.. i belong to the 3’s.. nyahahaa.. mikaa oi!

i already deleted my other half and my alter ego in all my accounts.. hahoizz..

you are the one
whom i wanted in life to have
the one who can make me smile
and the one who can make me laugh

you are the one
whom i waited for so long
i cherished every memories we had
and i cherished you as you are

you are the one
who made me cry every now and then
the one who makes my life like this
and the one who made my life so

miserable

you are the one
whom i cared and love for so long
the one i dared to be with forever
and the one whom i wanted to be with

you are the one
whom i can confide to
the one whom i can trust to
and the one whom i can run to

you are the one
who makes my dull day so bright
you have brigtened my soul
and you have brigtened by life

you are the one
the one whom i always thinkin` of
the one who can make me real
and the one who can make me so weird

you are the one
the one who made me felt this way
the one who always pushed me away
and the one who left me hangin`

you are the one
the one who made me always think of
the one whom i can’t live without you
and the only one who made me half alive

you are the one
the one who make me felt sublime
the one i wanted in my whole life
the one i missed every now and then
and the only one who bring out the best in me!

-jhel -sept11, 410pm-

believing by the calling
to be free is all i wanna be..

It’s not that easy living in this crazy mixed up world just like what you think. We need to struggle life in order for us to survive. we need to face every tribulations that come along in our lives. I’m just an ordinary person in this dark place, just trying to make things right. Sometimes I think of giving up everything i have for the sake of giving up sacrifices at the same time `cause i always think of one thing. I’m so tired of sacrificing everything, so tired of thinking all over again, so tired of thinking what might be good for me and not just thinking of myself but also for the people i love most, but how bout myself? When can I get what i wanted in life? When can i get all the things that I’m craving in my entire life? all i wanted is just to be free, to live life to the fullest and to get what I wanted to be in life. I always think and asked myself why I am here? what’s the purpose of being a human here in this world? I can’t get what they’re saying all about as if I’m living in this unhappy life. So complicated that can be possibly turn out into death. Yes, even death. If that particular thing is legal then I would be one among those people who are no brains and what they’re always shouting the so called LOSERS! I don`t care what they’re thinking right now upon reading this adversities in my whole life, at least I’m real and writing everything, my burdens in life and what i felt these past few days. Honestly I’m blessed that God gave me this life but at the same time I’m not happy for having here with this empty life full of hatred, sorrow, pains, anger and full of misery. I have my family but i knew they don’t support me at all. I have all my friends but not all of them that i can trust. Few among my friends that i can understands me. Can understand what i felt, what i wanted to be and what i wanted in life. And lastly, I do have this someone who’s so very kind to me.  He’s the only one who knew about this but it seems that he don’t like me at all. He seems to be different. I think he don’t really understands me at all. He seemed to be somebody that I don’t knew. What worst most is that I’ve finally accepted him as my other half but it seemed that he don’t want to be part of it. I wanted to be with him even if it’s just a second but I can’t easily bear every pain I’ve felt because of these frustrations that I’m always hiding. Being an ordinary person in this cruel world with miserable life is not as easy at all. It leads you to something which can give you freedom, happiness and yes even torturing one’s self for the happiness of others. Why can’t God make things all beautiful? Why can’t He make all things happy? Well, i don’t asking anything or even more to Him but all i wanted to know is that why He built everything here on earth not equally? I wanted to be free. I wanted to be somebody in this crazy mixed up world. I wanted to be somebody that can leave a footprints in every humans heart that I’ve known. Somebody that can do what he wanted in life and can make all things possible. There, i could be happy and live peacefully in my next life.
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~ambot! =(

A midst of silence
I always think of you
Thinking of perfect songs
Or poems to write just for you

I don’t know why
Why you’re always in my mind
Every minute, every second
And every hour of the day

I can’t possibly realize
Of falling in love with you
And I can’t explain
Of what I’m feeling for you

I don’t know how
How these things happened
And I don’t know what
What might happen next?

What took it so long?
Before I realize that I love you
I just can’t understand why
Why I’m falling for you now

So many questions in my head
But no one had an answer
Even a single word or phrases
Just to clear all my consciousness

O God please pardon me
Give me all the reasons why
Why these things meant to happen?
What is with him that makes me fall?

I can’t get him out in my mind
Like a traveler in my head
He’s the only one
The one whom I love

He helped me open my eyes
Just to see the reality
And helped me find myself again
Just to start a new beginning

How I wish you would hear me plead
And give me another chance
To hear your words of wisdom
And let me fill with your love…

-Jhel (may 25, 2007; 1:15am-friday)

We live in a pathologically dissatisfied world. And I’m going to tell you why. Because we love to compare. Go around the world and discover that people aren’t happy with their bodies.

Filipinos want to be fair-complexioned like Westerners, and so buy bleaching stuff. Westerners want to own bronzed bodies like ours, and so purchase tanning lotions.

Those with moles have them removed, while those who don’t strategically implant beauty spots.

Some people want to shed a few pounds to look like Ally McBeal, while others want to gain some baby fat to look like Drew Barrymore.

When are we ever going to stop and simply be happy with how we look? We live in a sick world. I tell you. And that sickness is comparisonitis. Take a look at wealth. When we drive our old Toyota, it really suits us fine. We feel blessed in fact when the rain pours outside and we feel snug and cozy on
its faded upholstered seats.

But the moment we see our own officemate (or neighbor, or buddy, or cousin, or brother) drive his sleek sky-blue, four-door, four-wheel-drive Rav4, we automatically feel like third class children of God. Next time we drive our bumpy, noisy, rusted, dilapidated Toyota (notice how all the defects come out all of a sudden?), we feel deprived, dispossessed, pariah, debased, and only a little higher than the insects of the earth.

Listen carefully. Bill Gates’ total assets are worth $60 billion. That’s more than the GNP of some small countries. Tiger Woods earns $80 million simply by smiling on TV in a Nike shirt. And the stars of the sitcom Friends are paid $50,000 per episode! My point? No matter how hard you work, there’ll still be some people who will be richer than you are.

And there’ll be some people who will be more beautiful, have more sex appeal, have more boyfriends/girlfriends, and have more problems. Try it for once. Stop looking around.

Don’t compare!

Don’t compare her nose with your nose. Don’t compare his wife with your wife.
Don’t compare his salary with your salary. Don’t compare her breast size with your breast size.
Don’t compare her kid’s report card with your kid’s report card.
Don’t compare his prayer group with your prayer group.
Don’t compare her/his cellulite deposits with your cellulite deposits.

Stop comparing and start living and you’ll be happier with your life.

This is crucial: The most difficult thing in the world is to be who you are not. Pretending and trying to
be someone else is the official pastime of the human race. (I don’t think dogs and cats and cows and
horses have this problem).

And the easiest thing in the world is to be yourself. Be happy. Live!

There must be a reason why God made you tall or short or fat or thin or bumpy all over.

Love who you are!

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synopsis: hmmm.. this may sound so real.. hehe:D bitaw, nice ang thought! sakto jud xa.. we must love ourselves above all things.. `cause we are uniquely made by God in his own image ang likeness.. nah, gurl i don’t have any space for |nSeCuRiTiEs.. saernz! and why should i? I do have my own self.. saernz pud ka.. ki-at lng nah dagwai mo.. pagpuyo woe! (taken from cindy’s page and was made by his friend i think..)

-this is a perfect song for wedding ceremonies-

dO yOu believe in destiny.?! as far as i’ve knOwn destinies lies On us.. it is us whO made Our Own destiny in life.. the One whO picks the right chOices.. either tO pick the stOne Or the rOck; and the One whO leads Our Own way tO the right path in life.. [unsa ni bOut life / love.?! ]

why peOple are always falling in lOve yet they failed? they feel that love is in the air but then they again stumble and fall? i wOndered what really LOve is.?! why LOve always hurt peOple in sO many ways? and why lOve make sOme peOple gOin’ crazy and wOrst is peOple tend tO cOmmit suicide just because Of lOVe.. dO lOve can realize all his mistakes?

On the cOntrary, lOt Of peOple blame lOve On what is happening in their lives.. they think lOve is the One making their lives sO miserable but in fact lOve is just what they truly feel and nOt the One whO made their lives sO miserable. relevance.?! i myself again felt in love.. tO the persOn whOm he can face his Own lOneliness and cried like a child in the cOrner Of his dark rOom.

|f we’re meant fOr each Other why GOd wOn’t give us a chance tO be tOgether and spread lOVe up in the air.. why He can’t give us what we want.. and why we peOple dOn’t knOw hOw tO shOw what they truly felt.?! [arggggggggg.. maka pikOn nah ka!]

what may be the reasOns, well i dOn’t knOw.. Only Our destinies cOuld answers all Our unanswered questiOns.. and Only God knews everything whats meant fOr us..

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“|t’s a mystery why lOve tend tO unnerve me.. |t’s a mystery why lOve tend tO hurt me always.. |t’s a mystery why lOve tend tO leave me in a dark place sObbing like a child.. and |t’s a mystery why lOve wOn’t give me a chance tO shOw my true feelings fOr yOu..”

~thanked yOu fOr making / shOwing me hOw yOu truly cared fOr me and lOve me in a different way. i have thanked yOu fOr helping me fOrget all my past bad experiences bOut lOve in sOme Other guys.. but One thing fOr sure,  nOw |’ve |earned tO |ove yOu even mOre and this much is true!…

~| admit it, | lOve yOu and i’ll always will.. o_O