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{July 30, 2008}   We could be…
i love you and you love me but why can't we together.?

i love you and you love me but why can't we be together.?

Alone in the night or even in the day
Got nothing to do and nowhere to go
It’s like rainy days in summer
That makes my life so numb

I don’t know why
Why these things meant to happen
And I also don’t know how
How to mingle myself in this cruel world

Pain inside are already vanished
Yet the scars are still there
This made me weak inside
And bent my knees to cry

I don’t know how
How to find myself again that once lost
Because of this abstract thing
That makes my life miserable

And now I found my light
My light & shinning armor in the dark
Who guides me through my way
And help me find myself again

A midst of solitude
I already found someone
Who can fill the emptiness of my life
And leads me through the end of time

He’s the only one
The one whom I cared for
The one whom I trusted
And the only one whom I always loved

I thought I would never be in love again
Coz of the bad things happened from the past
But now, I’m falling in love again in silence
To the land of hopes and fantasias

But how can I make this for real
That the prince of this key to my heart
Don’t even know what he truly feels
And how to read the language of love in silence

I don’t know why I’m falling in love with you
And I’m aware that you had someone
But I’d rather hide my feelings for you
Rather than to break a sacred rope

I want you to be my partner forever
And grows old together with you
And I think I’m falling in love again
But I don’t know if you feel the same way like I do

How I wish upon a star
That we could be together
And be my angel in disguise
Maybe only in my dreams
But I do hope we could be…

-Jhel- (May 22, 2007@01.03am – Monday)



{July 29, 2008}   ~undeadly discease

why are lots of people have experience similar pains? why these kind of pains drive people crazy and the worst thing is it might lead them into death. Are these pains really healthy to us? Are these pain can give us a happily ever after? what’s exactly the right word to describe these kinds of pain that we’ve been carrying? And what’s really the true mystery of these unforgiving pain that they also named as the so called “THE EPITOME OF LOVE”? [to be continued.. mika nah oi! ala nko mahuna hunaan.. hihih:D ]



“Alms… Alms… Alms… spare us a piece of bread, spare us your mercy, we are the masses so vulnerable, so thin and so rugged.”

how cruel life could be.

how cruel life could be.

We, are the masses suffering, of pain, pf sorrow, and VEGEANCE. Vegeance comes into my mind everytime I remember the memories from the past. The events in the past are likening to a hurting smell of cadaver, that is slowly entering my veins ang lurking me to shout for revenge. The mere reflection of a construction man working under the extreme heat of the sun is my heart and my innermost being capsize to the tumultuous world of injustices. I cannot help myself but wonder, why is it that many people who are working to the best of their human strenght is only allotted six months of work and then, they are out. How can our ever-beloved government allow such “cruelty” to happen in our society today? We cannot blame the street children begging for crumbs, the night crawlers selling their flesh and blood for survival and the snatchers stealng our belongings. Congratulate yourself, you are able to extend a helping hand to the unfortunate ones. The roots of chaos that is happening in our society, is mainly because of indufficient jobs, contractualization to be more exact.

What does contractualization means and the silhouette behind this scheme? As defined, contractualization is a process wherein an employee is allotted six months of work and this is without benefits when the term is finished. Almost all of the capitals in our country are practicing the latter. Such rules implemented, show a clear picture that the benefits is not for the masses but for the elite individuals who are holding the office. Most of the workers, after they lost their honorable job, sits in the corner of the room and then think until they could think no more. What is happening to our society today? Many of us are willing to work to the fullest, but employment is on limit. We cannot exercise properly our right to security of tenure, because these rights are being denied. Contractualization is disbursing us from the security of our jobs, and to think that the workers are the assets of the capitalist. They are the fertilizers of the running business; they should be treated with equality and integrity. This is a mockery to us, the oppressed masses, because we are working not for our benefits but for the big-mouthed godzillas. Still, we haven’t received the treatment that we are supposed to experience. Contractualization is an earthquake that has shaken the pillars of foundation in the security of our jobs. Evrytime we reach the five months of work in a certain company, hysteria of questions and confusions will always trigger our stable minds. Will i ever be out or will I remain? This is a big ha! ha!… to the capitalist because we are programmed that things would fall as predicted by their confused minds. This should not be done. We must not allow such vanity to happen in our life as working masses. We must emphasize our rights that they can only implement such lay-off if their company is out of business or if they are in the point of bankruptcy. The lawnmowers are dispatching the working masses early, mainly because they are allergic to the privileges that they will grant to the workers. A big Q will always be at the back of our minds. They will lay-off workers and hire another group of them to fill-in the vacant slots. Do we consider this normal or just a plain moonshine in their king of reasoning?

As a student, it is an undeniable fact that we will also become workers someday and become the same victims of this scheme device by the big capitalist. We must learn to experience the heart of being a contractual worker, because I know and you know that nobody is exempted in the increase mania of contractualization. We must struggle and help our fellow Filipinos to fight for our rights and for our true and genuine democracy. We must do something before it would be too late for all of us. The PAL, Cebu Plaza Hotel, Copylandia and MCCH workers are just plain examples that contractualization is not just an imagination, a fairytale, or a fiction but it is a painstaking reality.

-by jennylyn bargayo

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~synopsis: (unya ra ko tiwas ani mika nako. hehe..) to be continued..



{July 18, 2008}   BLISS..
how i really wish that i could find `my other half` in this crazy mixed-up world.. =(

how i really wish that i could find `my other half` in this crazy mixed-up world.. =(

amidst of solitudine
i found someone like you
someone who could love me
and accept me for who i am

he is the only one who could make me laugh at all times
the one who could only bring back the time
and the only one who could wipe away all my tears
and converted it into laughters..

bit by bit i almost forget what we had
but our memories still remain here in my heart
and i know along in this miserable journey
someone could replace your place

i knew it’s impossible to find someone like you
but i found your silhouette here in a dark place
where i can be completed and
can embrace him with all my heart..

And now I found my light
My light & shinning armor in the dark
Who guides me through my way
And help me find myself again

i don’t know if i love him
but i know this much is true
i miss him the way i missed you
and i need him d way i wanted you

he’s the only one in my life
The one whom I cared for
The one whom I trusted
And the only one whom I always loved

I thought I would never be in love again
Coz of the bad things happened from the past
But now, I’m falling in love again in silence
To the land of hopes and fantasias

he’s the only bloke in my life
and i wont let these days passed by
’cause i’ve already forget you and
welcome to love this someone

his the only one who captured my soul
the one who could brightened up my days
and the one who could make me smile
just in a blink of the eye..

again, i felt love is in the air
and hopefully that this someone
could fill the emptiness of my soul
and everytime that i’m with him,
bliss is what i always felt here in my heart..

-Jhel- (March 21, 2008@11:36pm – black saturday)



{July 18, 2008}   -REFLECTIONS-

“..these people are consuming our garbage for food, they have the entire stretch of the streets as office, the warm comfort of an old newaspaper as bed, how simpler could life get?”

alms.. alms.. alms..

alms.. alms.. alms..

Walking briskly through the city one night, a sudden gush of a rotten stench of some kind stole my attention, and when I turned, there it was a beggar on my right and a street child around 5 years young, clinging innocently by her mother’s side. When I got homr that night, I could not help but wonder, wonder helplessly at the harsh realities burdening our people.

We may have passed them once or twice today, but what did we do? or better, did we even remember about it? (except the stinky odor), they have passed as eyesores to us, hopin as irrelevant as possible that they remain anonymous, and the experience would leave a pigment of the past as possible, forgetting easily that these people breathe the same air that we do. We have gone about our imfeverish lives to make the big strides in satisfying our fleshy ordeals, but have we overlooked the outright truth that these people on the streets otr the “taong-grasa” present? Who are they? Or what are they? Or better yet, what kind or society that has reduces them to these unfortunate conditions.

strugglin to survive..

strugglin to survive..

Some might resort to crime just to satisfy their ever-hunger bellies, sould we blame them? Some might loiter around begging for our extra change, even unblemished children are doing this, but could we blame them? Some sell their cold flesh every cruel night just to have pleasure of surviving, and again could we blame them?

These people are regarded by society as human wastes. A waste by-product of society development, they are as we sometimes bitterly call them garbage personified. They’re just doing their own little business, behind the shadows of skyscrapers, but as we look closer we find out that they are humans too, humans as in ones with names, and ones eith right of existence, existence in this tuny miserable planet that we have always thought to be just a wonderful blue gem floating serenely and magnificienctly in space, funny how these contrast reveaks behind the shadows of beauty (development). Indeed, development is inherent in us humans, since the first time our eyes marveled at the discovery of fire, we have never ceased to advance. But how ironic would this advancementt be, when at the same time as discovering new technologies and newly found comforts, we are casting out and neglecting these poor brothers and sisters of our spciety in the process.

your help could help a lot!

your help could help a lot!

A friend once said that it would be wise to spurn a beggary life that easily, for it opens new paradigms, a new perspective for which man may be able to peak into the mysterious game of life. “A life free from selfish worries of human existence, our concern would only be limited to the simple problem of finding edible garbage for out next meal”. Personally, I am not sure whether I can disagree with that. Imagine a life so primal, so basic that we would be (at last) free from selfish politicking, free from IMPERIALISM oppressions, and free from any shallow worries of life. Imagine, these people are just cosuming our garbage for food, they have the entire stretch of the streets as office, the warm comfort of an old newspapers as bed, how simpler could life get? They don’t give a damn about Boracay or Paris or London, much more of who won the last Elections or even what year would today happen to be. For them, today is just another creeping of light to hide the sadows of the night, in other words, today is just another day at the office, another day of scouring through life’s bitter edge, preparing themenu for the next (very) exotic meal. Then drifting through existence, then fade away into the faceless obscurities of the inssensitive crowd.

Sometimes, this simplicity touches upon the very pitfalls which man succumbs to the greed for material poer and wealth. We have come to be so complex a being that we may missed out on this very essential thing, and until we learn from the simplicity and the giving up og greed form this surprisingly teachers or morals, we will never ever see the heap of actual development.. of our Society.

by persius

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synopsis:  i really love this article. it made me cry and think hundred times. And it also asked me all the possible questions that might come out in my mind that particular day. Why many humans are so rude and cruel for this life without thinking that what they have right now won’t give them a pleasant identity for them.? One peso or just a small amount for food would give a change for them. Isn’t that so hard for us to do, right? If we only knew and realize how they felt and how much it painful for them to be like that. Yea i knew, they can’t blame you because they’re life became miserable and you can’t blame them for being like that, but only if we think for less fortunate ones maybe nobody would suffer just like some of our society today.  [wew` ala nko sa ko mind..  i dunno what would be my next sentence.. mika nah mn gud.. hahaa..] -to be continued..



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